How are you?
A friend recently asked me how I was, and for a moment, I found myself at a loss for words. Eventually, I mumbled that I was fine, somewhat meekly, and mentioned being busy with work and other routine matters. Yet, there was a subtle sense that this year lacked the drama or excitement that usually fuels captivating stories.
In that brief pause, I wondered whether I had downplayed my experiences or was subconsciously searching for a thrilling tale to share. When none surfaced, I felt I had no story to tell, making everything else that occurred in the past 11 months seem irrelevant.
Upon reflection, I realized I was unconsciously comparing this period to the turbulence of the previous year or my life in general, marked by drama, struggles, and challenges. It dawned on me that an old conditioning had resurfaced that linked relevance and the richness of life to its inherent difficulties. This mindset, ingrained over time, proved challenging to shake off despite years of inner work.
In reality, my life this year has been relatively calm. I daresay it's been the most peaceful, drama-free year, and I enjoy every moment! It had its challenges because what's life without it?
But I could have shared the newfound smoothness in my five-year relationship with my partner and how we traveled for the first time together. Earlier this year, I started a morning walking routine and discovered a beach boot camp where we welcomed the day with a workout while watching the sunrise. Post-workout, my partner and I spent quality time swimming, sometimes accompanied by curious fish or the occasional appearance of a serene stingray or playful dolphins. Living in Miami means occasional thunderstorms, which we observed with awe. On lucky days, we witnessed double rainbows and rushed to the water to swim in the silky-smooth aftermath of the rain.
Not only did I savor the little moments, but I also learned tools and developed skills to source safety within so I could navigate my anxiety. I kept learning and understanding myself even more to show love and compassion.
So, when I say I'm fine, it's an understatement. I'm more than fine—I'm content, grateful, and genuinely happy. It took me years of inner work and a lot of therapy to even say that without feeling guilty. Can you relate to that?
It's amusing how a seemingly simple question like "How are you?" can trigger profound moments of introspection. Well, I suppose that's the introvert in me.
There's this peculiar worry that creeps in when life is calm. Navigating the serenity can be challenging when you're accustomed to a drama-filled existence.
And how about you? How are you doing? How has this year been, and what are you looking forward to in the next year?
As for me, I look forward to a vibrant, present, and love-filled 2024!
With love and blessings,